It’s been a while

It’s been a while seriously, before we even know it, time has zoomed past us, leaving traces only in our memories, of the good, the bad, and of course the ugly.

I’ve gotta admit though that things have change. I have changed, more jaded than ever before, soon to reach a cross-roads of my life after graduating. It’s been good i guess, the friends, the women, the wine (or beer cos i really hate wine).

Friends, i’ve gained friends along my journey. Of which, those that actually stuck are archetypal of my old time friend Mr Lionel Wong, of which i feel that we’ve gotten closer and closer over the years. Been through more than what most would call simple male bonding over alcohol. Increasingly the ice-faced, emo looking, good looking son of a bitch would actually start opening up to me about stuff, something i appreciate.

Well then again i lost someone. Someone whom i regret losing because of my own failings. If you’re reading this chow… i’m really sorry. Really really sorry.

Moving on before i fly into a flurry of emo shit. Yes. the women. I lost one since i last blogged, in fact i wouldnt even consider us friends anymore, perhaps due to my own failing once again. Well, basically it was never really the ‘love’ that kept us close for the longest time. But tolerance, forgiveness and understanding as well as always being there for each other. Let’s just say i forgot how to do all those i listed.

There were new entrants as well, a particular someone who came, swept me off my feet and went back to places of paradise i could never ever afford. It pained me deeply that i wasn’t good enough (financially at least) which became a reason when we stripped bare the entire saga of accidental meeting, turn apprehension, turn madly in love and finally lost.

On the other hand, speaking of new entrants, it has become quite apparent to me that i am no longer the “take it all” kenneth, i’m having a hard time wondering about this new someone… would be a pretty good catch in other’s eyes. But not in mine. To be honest, for those who know me, increasingly, wealth and beauty has started to plant its willful indulgence in me. In fact to a large extent it’s prolly brought about by the one i spoke about in the previous para.

And the Wine…. lol… i’d love to have an infinite glasses of those. Chilled and savored with the heartiest of moods. But now… it no longer appeals to me, the drunken nights, the loose women.

In a conversation i had with a ‘close friend’ , i’ve seriously neglected and though i seriously am irritated by her sometimes, I realised that I pretty much appreciate the shit heck outta her.*if you read this u’d know who u r.

Shit i derailed. what i meant to say was that I really don’t see alcohol as a form of pleasure anymore, more as an ideological form of relaxation that has been constructed by the media to sell more of this liquidated form of vice. As someone once said, I’d rather consume my calories in solid form.

And btw…. just something i had to say… CHARMAINE URE CURRY ROX!!!